Or really, I miss the regular alteration of my state of consciousness. And the free time I seem to have had, to indulge in it. I haven't taken LSD since high school (which was a very long time ago)and it always seemed like I had so much time. Or maybe it was that I felt comfortable multitasking. I seem to recall going to class tripping. And there was that one Thanksgiving...
My point is that I'm old and it's not fun anymore, I guess. Friday I went out drinking--I am extremely fortunate, in that I live in an urban environment, where my 'local' is a shabby gay bar, less than a mile from the house, and I have several compatriots who enjoy meeting there on nights when the drinks are two-for-one--and I don't remember how I got home. In the morning I woke up and was convinced that I had left my bike locked up outside the bar. (I ride a sweet little three-speed roadster everywhere; I'm too close to most things for a car to be worth it.) Anyway, I woke up without my pants, which I took as a good sign, in that I'd had the presence of mind to remove most of my clothes. The bike was parked in the garage when I checked, which was a relief. I'd even managed to deal with the little fiddly locking bits in my inebriated state. So all was well.
Except for the part where I had a miserable hangover all day Saturday. I had to skip out on my volunteer work, which sucks. And it was a pointless hangover, caused entirely by a lack of planning on my part. I don't even think I had the amount of fun that should be commensurate with that level of alcohol.
I feel like this is a parable for other things, too. I feel like there are fun altered states and less-fun altered states. The fun ones are valuable; they're enriching somehow. Or productive. I'd put the following things into that category: LSD, writing, painting, sex. Maybe some other things. Really good conversation, probably. Skinny dipping in a stranger's pool in the middle of the night.
In the less-fun altered state category are things like too much booze and television. Juice cleanses would go in there, too. Raw macrobiotic diets for sure.
I don't know if that makes any sense, but I guess I'm sad about having writer's block, and I think it's due partially to my indulging in too much of the less-fun things. I don't think I have the bandwidth to consume as much television as I currently do, and
produce things. Does that make any sense?
Does that happen to you? How do you balance creation and consumption? Do you have to turn off the TV when you make stuff?
I feel like I don't know a whole lot of writers anymore. (Holler if you're a writer on my flist!)Most folks I talk to regularly are visual artists, which is awesome, but I miss talking about the writing process with people. Do you know any good tips for getting over writer's block (or artist's block, etc.)?
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